Wednesday, July 28, 2010

feeling DoWn!

yes..that's it..
dislike diz..
i hate diz feeling..

the feeling that comes again after a long recovering of time..
the feeling that overwhelmed me when i got my spm result..
the feeling that punched me right onto my face when i knew that i won't be able to fulfill my parent's wish..
the feeling that kicked my body when i knew i won't be able to realize my dream..
the feeling when i knew my best friends will leave me..
the feeling when i knew i will only become a teacher..
the feeling when i knew they will be.......n i'm not..


seriously..i tried to throw away diz feeling far away..
as far as i can..but..suddenly..it keeps coming back...


if i can turn back the time..


being overwhelmed with this negative feeling..
all happened when i stalked one of my senior..
happy being in auckland..the pics..

besides..i heard one of my frens will also fly diz sept..
congratz..i'm happy for her..


sincerely, i won't be down like diz if we could also fly to auckland..
we supposed to fly..we are the third cohort *if i'm not mistaken...huuuu..
why the government have no money??


maybe what has happened have reasons..

i should be grateful...
astaghfirullahalazim...
what am i thinking!!

Allah knows everything..
ya Allah..please give me the strength to live the life..
ya Allah..please guide me..

2 comments:

mawar~wardah said...

dear..u know wut?? i guess most of us actually feel the same with u....believe me dear....but we just pretend that we don't really want to go there and we have no such thing like a big desire and hope to be there...but we actually want to be there as much as we pretend that we don't want....

nurfarah wahidah said...

we all got the same idea as yours. it's just we dun want to admit it. huuuu