today (10.10.2010) only come once every 1000 years.....
nice one!
special for some people...
but nothin for me...
still the same...
still like that..
no changes...
egoistic!
juz admit it!
hoho..
u......i will juz..
wait n see...
juz keep it.........
n i won't...
look at me...
i think there is nothing wrong outside...
just plain...nothing special...looks "healthy" n happy...
except sometimes the emo storms hit me...
......but...inside....
bleeding?? nope...that's not it...it's just a scar.......
a scar that i'm quite sure that not even the latest n famous product can cure it...
i regret........................
i wish i could turn back the time...but there's no point..
the more i try to accept,the more things getting harder..
what's wrong with me?
i tried to accept being what i am...
but something inside my mind would say.."i am stupid!"
huarghhh....i'm getting crazy....
i was changed.........extremely different from the past...
i don' t know whether i like this changes or not...
i'm confused...
being trapped in this body....
i hate being me..
but who am i gonna be?????
mood swing again...
this morning, anger overwhelming me..
if I were a dragon at that point of time,
I think I would blow the fire until there's nothing left except dust...
but..........
i don't want to do that...
i don't want to be left alone..
so, what i have to do is just.......
being patience...that's all..........
ignore everything...
its really tiring......
when u ignore ur feeling....to care for others.....
tiringggggggggggggg.....................
huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...................
i wanna cryyyyy.........
life must go on...
i must be happy...
thank u frens for making me happy...
n forget everything that would make me insane.........
