feeling DoWn!

yes..that's it..
dislike diz..
i hate diz feeling..

the feeling that comes again after a long recovering of time..
the feeling that overwhelmed me when i got my spm result..
the feeling that punched me right onto my face when i knew that i won't be able to fulfill my parent's wish..
the feeling that kicked my body when i knew i won't be able to realize my dream..
the feeling when i knew my best friends will leave me..
the feeling when i knew i will only become a teacher..
the feeling when i knew they will be.......n i'm not..

seriously..i tried to throw away diz feeling far away..
as far as i can..but..suddenly..it keeps coming back...


if i can turn back the time..


being overwhelmed with this negative feeling..
all happened when i stalked one of my senior..
happy being in auckland..the pics..

besides..i heard one of my frens will also fly diz sept..
congratz..i'm happy for her..


sincerely, i won't be down like diz if we could also fly to auckland..
we supposed to fly..we are the third cohort *if i'm not mistaken...huuuu..
why the government have no money??


maybe what has happened have reasons..

i should be grateful...
astaghfirullahalazim...
what am i thinking!!

Allah knows everything..
ya Allah..please give me the strength to live the life..
ya Allah..please guide me..

spongebob

ok..

I MISS MY SPONGEBOB!

I WANT TO HUG IT TIGHT RIGHT NOW!!

put ur finger on ur mouth!

ok..great!
today really test my patience!
really pissed me off!
huuu...
huuuuu..
i thought we went there to play kompang ONLY,
but..
ended up doing all the things that we were not supposed to do..
who should be blame on that??

i really could not stand it..
n suddenly burst into tears..
we can't complaint..
we can't say anything..
juz do what...... said..

i pitied those who involved in ddka tonight..
must be really tired n exhausted..
just be patience frens..

....second time....

today..
i hate everything!






ok..pic pon terbalek..sigh..

..

ok..fine..

terase
mmg kalu susah sorg2..
ok..

syuhada!
remember this!!

incident...

i thought when i play kompang..i could release my tension..
BUT..UNFORTUNATELY!
its getting worse..
not that i don't enjoy playing kompang..but..
sometimes..there's something that irritated me!
huh..
if i can enjoy it whole heartedly..it would be great! sigh =_="
and then..
went back to hostel,
ughh...still that news..
we got complaint that we're making noise!
what the tuuutttt!!
why we could not just be like other hostel..
is it wrong that we fell happy?
we love to laugh!
that's our problem!
why?
isn't it "LAUGHTER IS THE BEST MEDICINE FOR OUR HEALTH"????
huuu......how can we adapt this "quiet" situation?
we have mouth to talk..bla3333....
gonna be crazy after this..
huaarrggggh.. hate it!